Contemplating Life..and then some.

I've been so stressed trying to figure out what my purpose in life is. What should I do? When should I do it? How should I do it?

I guess no one really ever knows what it is they want. People are way older than me and still don't know. They tell me that's OK. Try lots of things. You've got your whole life to figure it out. But what if I want to know now?

I know. I need to be patient. Something I'm not very good at.

I was sitting here thinking while my pizza is in the oven. I've got a lot to be grateful for.

I've got an amazing family who loves me and is there whenever I need them. Just last night I had a blessing from my dad and Brother Hobbs, their Home Teacher.

I have wonderful aunts and uncles, who as well love me and care for me. I spent a much needed hour on the phone yesterday with Megan. Getting updated on the goings on down there.

Cousins who just look up to me. I talked to Thomas on the phone yesterday, Megan's baby. I actually cried. I miss that kid so much. I guess you get attached when you spend eight months with him. I think about the Mckimmey girls all the time as well.

A boyfriend who loves me no matter what I do. I got my wisdom teeth out last week. He was my driver. I guess I wasn't very nice to him. Cussed him out several times, told him I hated him, and flipped him off. I ended up passing out on the way home. He brought me inside, tucked me in and checked up on me throughout the night.

Friends who I can lean on when I need to lean away from the family. They remind me in my most stressed out days how to have fun and enjoy life while I can.

I've got a car that while is a beater and falling apart on me, still runs.

A home that works for me.

And a job that I semi enjoy. Home Depot has been great. It has good benifits and is a monthly income.

So for now, I think I'll just enjoy life and see where it takes me. Who knows, maybe I'll become an astronaut. Or maybe a sniper in the military. But until then. I'm happy being me.

Security Forces

Shawn has finally gotten everything done that needed to be done with the Air Force. He's offically in!! He got sworn in on Friday, that was a neat exsperience! It really made me think though, this is really happening. He's leaving March 8th. A lot sooner than he thought. It's now starting to catch up to him. He's so stressed out about all he has to do in only a month. He wont be coming home until August 22nd. He's missing my birthday :( Oh well, the reason is good enough. Oh yeah, he's joining the Air Force Security Forces. Yes, a cop. It's rather funny to, counting how many tickets the kid has. Anyways, so I'm just going to be here working, waiting for him to get back. Ok, that sounds like I'm pathetic.....Ok maybe I am a little bit.. I'll find something to keep me occupied till he gets home!

Sargent Everett

Most of you already know I'm dating Shawn. For about three months now I think. Most of you know him as this:This is how I know him.

I finally got him to cut off all that hair and take that stupid ring out.

Another reason for it?

He's going back into the Air Force. It was just the Reserves, but now it's full in. He's going to be gone for two months in Texas for basic.

Then what?

I have no idea. And thats the scary part. But I guess we will wait and see.

Life outside of the box

I'M. MOVING. OUT!

And it's just about time! I called on a craigslist add about a room for rent,

just so happens it was a girl I work with who put the add up.

So now I'm going to live closer to all my singles friends up Fishook!

And the best part is, I get to have a PURPLE room after all!!!

I'm moving in this weekend, can't wait.

I'll post pictures for sure when I can, the sad thing is, my dogs will be

staying at home with mom and dad (haha.)

Front Sight

Dad and I went to Front Sight Firearms training institute this last weekend. We got on a plane Wednesday night/Thursday morning to Vegas. We spent the day in Vegas with dad's friends Eric and Kyle. We also stopped by the Las Vegas Temple. Then we headed to Pahrump' Nevada where our hotel was.

First day of Front Sight was pretty fun, we got to learn what it was about. We were there from 7:30-6:30 everyday. From 7:30-8 we did dry practice. Which, mind you, actually works. Makes your shots go better.

Sunday, the third day, we had a night shoot. It. Was. Amazing, There is no other way to describe it. We learned how to use a flashlight, how to hold both the flashlight and the gun and make a good shot. Then the targets just went haywire and even though we killed the guy, he kept coming back! The instructors were going up and down the line yelling at us to shoot them! They were still coming! Kill them or they will kill you! It was intence, there were guns going off all over the place. I shot until I ran out of amo, three mags in I think about three minutes or so. It was so much fun!

We had to do a live simulation, a clearing of a house. We had to decide who to shoot and who was innocent, then save the hostage. It was pretty intence to. I was shaking when I first went in haha. I shot everyone, including the two innocent people, but I did save the hostage. And both my headshots were really good.

We also had a man on man competition. They called two names and we had to shoot against each other, the winner moved on to round two the loser had to reset the targets. I had to shoot agains Jeff Ward. There was no chance for me at all. Lol. He was amazingly fast. I wasnt really slow, but slow enough. I was proud I didnt hit my hostage though. Dad hit the hostage three times haha.

Monday, the last day, came around pretty fast. We had our skills test. That pretty much gave everyone the jitters. Or as our instucter Bill says, the test monkeys. We did the skills test in a dry practice, then we did the actual test. Freaked me out. But then I decided to just have fun with it. I did a lot better then I thought I would, got missed 53 out of 125. I was happy with my scores. In the end everyone passed the class. Only some people actually graduated, and two got high graduation. One of them, I'd like to point out, was Jeff Ward.

Tuesday, today, was full of flying. We stopped by the Bass Pro Shop on our way to the airport. We boarded at noon, then went to Salt Lake, where the plane was late, then to Seattle, where we had to run to our next flight, but didnt make it. We had ten minutes to get there and we had to take two trams to get to the gate. So we had to wait another hour. Which was depressing because both dad and I just wanted to get home.

But now we are home, tomorrow both dad and I have to go back to work. But watch out world, I can now shoot someone from the holster in 1.5 seconds! (Well thats what they say lol)

Been awhile.

So yeah it's been awhile since I had a real post. I've been so busy with life that I havnt taken the time to sit down and write something. I've been working at Home Depot. I love it. Except its kinda like being in High School, no make that Middle School all over again. There are so many rumors and gossip that goes through that place. It's insane. If you say one thing to one person, chances are by the end of the day, everyone, and I mean EVERYONE will know about it. It's kinda like you don't have a personal life. Even if you don't say something to anyone, some how everyone finds out. Or worse, it turns into a full out lie of a rumor. One of the guys I work with, Dante, asked me out. The next day people were coming up to me asking if I was dating Dante. I'm like, um no. It's just a date thanks. Another thing. I work with Shawn. As some of you know he was my "friend." Now ex. Yeah, there was and still is mind you, lots of gossip about us going around. It's almost depressing to go to work. Everyone knows you. And not because youve talked to them. No, because you're the girl everyone is talking about.

I hate it.

But life goes on. And you can't let the simple things bother you. I'm going over to the college tomorrow to sign up for the compass test and hopefully classes. I also want to find some one who does horse lessons.

Goals for the rest of the year:

-Move into Apartment.

-Get own car.

-Pay off speeding ticket (A given)

-Go to Temple at least once a month.

-Take Compass/ACT's.

Goals for Spring time:

-Take automotive class.

-Take Vet class.

-Volunteer at the animal shelter.

-Learn guitar

Long Term Goals:

-Get married in the Temple (Yes, it is on the list)

-Become a Vet

-Open a dog rescue

Crash 10/19/10

So I got a phone call while I was in town today around 3:45. Andrew rolled the suburban. Yup. He had Katie and Ryan in the car with him. Thank goodness they all were wearing seatbelts. I'm pretty sure someone would have died if they hadnt been. Everyone is shook up, including dad, mom and I, but everyone is ok. Here are some pictures of the car. Poor thing, and we just got it fixed.