Or maybe I keep changing my plans. One way or another, nothing is the same day by day.
I've pushed all my friends away. I've pushed Shawn away as well.
My logic in that?
When your alone no one can disapoint or leave you.
Yeah, stupid I know.
I've been so down lately and lonely and it seems like everyone elses lives are better off without me. I'm like the black cloud that just wont go away.
But I'm trying to fix that. Sometimes things just look low. But you've got to find the silver lining and see what you have, not what you want.
I'm working on that.
I've decided to stay in Alaska. At least for a couple years. Until the baby is older.
I'm going to go to cosmetology school. My goal is Trendsetters. But maybe one of the others if they don't offer part time. I'm moving to Anchorage, maybe this Summer, is something good apartment wise ever shows up.
Well now you've heard it. The new plan. Now we'll see how long this will last.