It's 12:51 am.
I have to be up in almost six hours.
My brain is going a hundred miles an hour. So much thinking is going on. Sometimes I just wish I could turn it off. Forget everything and let my mind go blank. Just so I can have some peace and quiet. Some rest and relaxation.
Is it normal to not want to depend on someone else?
To always have a backup plan in case what your counting on doesn't happen?
I'm in a rut where I just don't know of anything anymore.
I want to be in dependant and rely on just me and my resources.
But can that happen?
I barely make enough money to get by for me and Koda.
Let alone for when Kaleb gets here.
Makes me nervous.
But nothing is impossible. I can do anything I set my mind to.
I hate that word.
I want to achieve something in life. Bigger than what I have so far.
And with that being said more schooling is needed. But I'm just not ready for it. I don't want to go back to those days of paper writing and math problems.
But maybe that's just the kid in me and really I need to just get it done now while I'm young.
Grrr, if only I wanted to be something that didn't involve eight years of schooling.