Long Time, No Post

So it's been about six and a half months since I've blogged. Life seems to have passed me by.
  We are now in Utah, living with Megan and Ben. I've enrolled at Paul Mitchell. It's a cosmatology school. I started May 7th. We got here on the 1st. It's been crazy since I got here, Megan is in the middle of moving to a bigger house, Becky and Ray are moving home to Alaska and Kaleb has been nasty pukey sick. It's been a long two weeks haha. School goes till September 2013.
  The plan was to come down, go to school and be done by January so I can go back up to AK in January with Megan and Ben. I didn't realize school would be so long. So I might just stay here and finish up. I'm not sure how in the world I would do that though. But stay strong and the lord will provide, right?
   Kaleb is on the upscale from being sick. We've have lots of puke, screaming, fussing and long nights on the recliner in the living room, a night in the hospital, two more doctor visits and four shots. Finally the fever is gone and his smile is back. Still a little screaming and lots of fussyness, but better. I've had a decent mothers day, we are just hanging out at home, I'm pretty sure we have been going going going every day I've been here, so this is nice.

Welcome to the family!

Kaleb Charles Everett.
Born October 19th, at 1:04 am. 8 lbs, 7 ozs and 20 1/2 inches long!
After 13 hours of labor he finally made his long awaited appearence. And he is loved! We got to leave the Birth Center around 4:30 and go home, where we both caught up on some sleep. He's such a sweetheart, awake and alert all day! He looks like his daddy, doesnt look like a smith.

With Every Day Life Changes

"When one door of happiness closes, another opens; But often we look so long at the closed door that we do not see the one that has been opened for us." -Helen Keller

Life sucks right now. It's hard to see the bright side. Or the silver lining as it is. But I'm trying. Recent problems have made life look like it's going to be a long and lonely one. But you know what, I know it won't. Life has it's ups and downs and thats just how it is.

Kaleb will be here any day now. Today is the 12th, supposably my "due" date. He's not ready to come out yet, it's much nicer inside than out right now. I give it another week at least. Nothing really exciting else is going on. Just thought I would put up a quote for the day. We have to remember to look for the other door. There is always another one.

You know that feeling of being so stressed over just about everything that you want to break down and cry for a little while?

Thats how I'm feeling.

I can't put my finger on exactly whats stressing me out, just everything. From the kids, to work, to my dog and car. Things in the past and things in the future.

I think I'm just tired. Need sleep.

I put in my new availablity form for work..

They put it into action next week.

Only working 3 days and they are 6 or less hours.

A 16 hour work week.

It scares me.

I know I can't work nine hour shifts anymore, it just about kills me. My feet hurt so much.

And I've got another job, working for Kirsten at Heritage Birth Centet 2 days a week.

So in reality I'm working five days a week. But it's still got me worried.

I need my own place so bad.

I got so much stuff from the Baby Shower and no where to put it.

I WILL not live with parents. Mine or Shawn's.

I can't do that. I just can't.

I just got back from babysitting in Kodiak on Wednesday, and here it is Friday and I'm now at my parents watching the kids for the weekend while they are in Kenai.

I think I'm to old to be babysitting.

Anyways, off to bed before another early day of work tomorrow.

Ahhh

So I'm still in Kodiak. Last day here. Amy and Jake fly in tomorrow morning and I fly out later that night. It's been fun but I'm so ready to be home, in my own bed with my puppy. Oh how I miss my boy! It's weird but he's like my baby, so not seeing him for a week is driving me nuts. I need to have a dog around me at all times! It's just normal.

I talked to Ben and Megan yesterday. I miss them so much. I admit I cried a little after I got off the phone. I've spent the last three summer's in Utah, so this year has been hard not seeing them. But I was excited to hear they are coming up for Christmas! So I can't wait to see them!

We cleaned all morning today. Betsy is ready for mom and dad to come home. She threw a giant fit and was didn't want anyone. The boys started asking if she wants mom and dad, so of course she started screaming "mommy, daddy!" They decided to call them. I wasnt going to stop them, they could try that, although I think it would make it worse for both sides. Amy and Jake talked to her trying to calm her, but she wasnt having any of it. The boys thought it was the funniest thing. I decided it was nap time. When in doubt, they are tired lol. She went right to sleep, didn't even fuss about it.

Jacob wants me to make Enchiladas for dinner. I LOVE enchiladas! But I'm sorta done with cooking lol. I've cooked more this week than I have all summer, maybe even all year! I know it's sad, but it's true. When you live alone and just cook for yourself, it's hard to bring yourself to really put effort into making food. Easier to just through something in the oven of microwave.

Shawn comes home soon! He texted me the other night, he's so ready to be home. And I agree, he called while he was out with his friends, just to say hi and he misses me, it's nice to hear his voice. I don't get to hear from him a lot lately, just a text before bed really. They've been keeping him pretty busy. We're still not sure exactly when he will be home, we just know it's the end of August. It would be nice if they would give him an date though...

Betsy is still sleeping, the boys are now running amuck outside, Jacob is still cleaning here and there. He is like the cleaning nazi lol, the house has to be clean or he goes crazy. And it doesn't help that the boys just ignore him...and me to for that matter lol. I just feel like the house will be clean when we get around to it. It's not bad enough that it stresses me out, so I don't worry about it. I guess thats where how we were raised kicks in. It's a good thing to, then later on in life he wont have a problem keeping a clean house. Lol.

Taco Cups and Avacado Salsa

Makes 18 cups

1 lb Ground Beef

1 Packet of Taco Seasoning

2/3 cup Water
1 can black beans, drained

2 cups chedder cheese, shredded

36 Wonton Wrappers

Favorite Taco toppings, salsa, sour cream, lettece, tomatoes.

Preheat oven to 375

Brown meat in a skillet and drain off fat, add the taco seasoning, black beans and water. Mix and simmer for 5-10 minutes until water is absorbed.

Spray muffin pan cups with cooking spray. Place one wonton wrapper in each cup. Divide half the taco meat between the cups, sprinkle half the cheese on top of each cup. Repeat layers: wonton, taco meat, cheese. Bake at 375 for 20 minutes.

Avacado Salsa

2 large Tomatoes

1 can of black beans, drained

1 can of corn, drained

3 or 4 avacados, depending on how much salsa you want

Garlic Salt

Mix together beans and corn, chop up tomatoes and add them. Chop up avacados and add them, do this last so they don't get to mushed up. Add garlic sald and pepper and whatever else you want for taste. Then enjoy!

Adventures in Kodiak

One of my favorite books. And I'm pretty sure it was based in Kodiak, AK. Lol. Today we decided to go on our own bear hunt. Mainly a sort of To See What We Can See trip.

And this is what we saw.