What if..

Everyone always tells me I can do whatever I want. As long as I want it, and I fight for it, I can reach any goal. If I wanted to be an astronaut, I could. If I wanted to become president, I could.

Everyone keeps asking me when I'm getting married. And when am I going to tell Shawn that if he doesnt marry me, then I'm done.

First off, It's my life.

I'll do what I want, how I want and when I want. I'm a big girl now. I can make my own desisions and mistakes and learn from them.

But what if I don't want to marry Shawn?

What if I want to be a single mom and work on my goals for now?

I want to go to school to become a Vet. Maybe thats what I need to focus on. Shawn is doing what he wants, why can't I do what I want?

Everyone says it will be hard with a baby.

Yes, I am aware of that.

But I can do it.

I'm not saying I don't ever want to get married, or that I don't want to marry Shawn.

I'm just saying, please stop bugging me about my life.

And it's a......

And it's a......

(Drumrole please)

BOY!!!!

I know, I really wanted a girl. But we'll take a healthy baby boy :)

No name picked out yet. Shawn has decided he doesn't want to know what it is. Wants it to be a surprise, so thats why it's not up on facebook. I think it's safe to post here because no one ever reads these. I just like to post things lol.

Anyways everything looks good, he's got giant feet, he's lazy, we had to really work to make him move to get some pictures. And they still are not all that great. I love the one of his feet :)

Missing my bestfriend.

I didn't realize it till now, but Shawn really is my bestfriend. Of course I've got other friends, but you have that one bestfriend you always want to be with. You always want to talk to. Before he left we did everything together, I always had Shawn to hang out with. We hung out with other friends to, but for the most part it was just Shawn and I.
It's been so hard being away and not being able to talk. I was hoping when he gets to tech school that it will all go back to how it was. At least being able to talk. I know he's still busy, and still needs to focus on school, I try to tell myself to be understanding when I don't hear from him.

But its SO hard!

I just don't understand why he can't just talk to me all the time!

I mean I really do understand. Its just I want to spend hours talking about everything and nothing. It's been two months since we could do that. I love to talk. About everything, little or big. I like to make plans. I like people to be involved in my plans. I like to hear input on my plans. If it's one thing I hate, it's to plan by myself. Exspecially when it involves other people.

On the rare occasions we get to talk for more than a few minutes, it's weird. I have to think, what did we used to talk about? With the three hour time change its difficult to. I'm getting off work and he's already in bed. Going to take some getting used to.

And I'll probably have to learn some patiance lol.

I've just missed him so much.

On another note, we find out if it's a boy or girl tomorrow. I've got the ultrasound at eleven then a midwife appt at noon. So thats exciting! Crossing my fingers for a girl. But something tells me it's going to be a boy. Either way we'll take it :)

There and Back Again

Well I finally made it to San Antonio, after an eight hour flight and three hour drive from Houston. We all arived in one piece! I flew down with Shawn's parents and little sister Nicki. First night we were so tired we just crashed at the hotel.

Woke up early the next day ready to explore. We were going to hit up Seaworld, but come to find out as we're about to pay, Seaworld was only open to the schools that day. Who shuts down an entire theme park just for schools???

Anyways it was off the Base we go.

Drove around, looked at where we were going to have to be the next two days for Shawn's graduation. Getting a heads up on everything I guess you could say. We then proceded to the great Alamo! And the River Walk. It was gorgeous! We had lunch at Cracker Barrel. I had never been there before, it was fantastic! Thanks for introducing me guys!

The next two days went by WAY to fast.

Thursday was a super early morning, went to the Breifing and then went to watch the Airmans Run. That was actually pretty cool. Nicki spotted Shawn, I didn't see him until the run back. Then they had the Coin Cerimony. It was a lot of Hurry up and wait inbetween everything. I think I still have imprints from those bleachers on my butt lol.

We got to spend the rest of the day with Shawn on Base. We stood in line for two and a half hours, waiting for him to get his stripes on his shirts. Then went to find something to eat. Holy crap have I forgotten how much that boy can eat! Two slices of pizza, three breadsticks, half my Chinese food, a giant Charlys sub, a couple candy bars, Ice cream. All within three hours I do believe. We were all wondering where he puts it all!

I swear he lost some weight and grew three inches as well.

Friday came and we found ourselves waiting in line again. Waiting to board the busses to take us to the Parade Grounds. The last bit of the Graduation. And, lots more waiting lol.

I had gotten pretty burnt the day before, so I was careful to douse myself with sunscreen.

The Parade was cool, they all walked by us in their Blues. It was a neat exsperience. Something you don't get to do more than once (Unless you know lots of people in the military?)

We got to go see their bunks after that. The hallway smelled like boys, bleh. Everything was so clean and organized, it was amazing!

We got to go off base today. We went to eat lunch at Cracker Barrel, then went to Seaworld! This time we got in, and for free to, thanks to Shawny. Seaworld was really cool, we got to feed the Dolphins, which was probably the best part! See the sharks, the aligators and most importantly just be together. It was a Fantastic Day!

It did however go by way to fast. Soon the day was ending and we had to take Shawn back to Base. He had to be back by 7, so we dropped him off at 6:30 so he wouldnt be late.

Saturday morning we picked him up at nine and went to Burger King for breakfast. We were flying out that day. And since we had to drive back to Houston we needed to get a move on. I was sad to go, but it was a good trip, better than not seeing him. Only four more months and he'll be home again. And I was ready to go back to Alaska. It was to hot in Texas lol.

That was our trip, it was great and amazing! I can't thank the Everetts enough for bringing me along and making it the best it could be!

Now I just need to hurry up and wait for him to come home! lol.

The Count Down Is Coming To An End!

It's about that time!

One more day and I fly out!

I'm so ready to get out of this state! It's cold, it's nasty and I'm just sorta done with it.

Of course I don't want to move, just a vacation sounds nice.

Plus, I really need to see my boyfriend. Like really really really need to see him.

I hate being away. And not being able to talk. Or see eachother.

Only a couple more days.