Finally! It came!

I FINALLY GOT LETTERS!

Yay me!

I was having a bad day on Sunday, I didn't get much sleep because I had a closing shift at work, then had my route and then opened the following morning. And then to top it off I went to church. While at church I left my phone in the car.

When I got out of church and checked my phone, Shawn's mom said he had called! He was doing good and misses us all! I quickly checked my phone for a missed call. Of course there was none. He is only allowed one call. But I had hope. From now on I've decided to keep my phone with me at all times. Just in case.

But she also said that I received two letters from him. He sends them with his families letter to his house. I picked them up Monday from his mom at work. I couldn't wait to read what he had to say!

The first one I opened was actually the second of the two, but as I was reading he mentioned going to church again and a Elder Squire. I couldn't believe what I had just read.

I hurried to the next letter and sure enough he says "Oh by the way, I'm going to Mormon Church." He enjoys it a lot. And they feed him lol.

I started crying. Have I mentioned I miss my boyfriend?

Waiting for a letter or some kinda of evidence that he does still exists is torture. I write him every day, about everything and nothing. I sometimes think I write to much, but he said he loves hearing from me. I did warn him before he left though, I said I like to talk a lot, I change my mind on a daily basis and I love to write. So be warned now, you'll get a lot of letters. And he has. Letters and lots of pictures.

Anyways, just thought I would fill in everyone, if anyone, is reading this.

Only five weeks before Graduation!

Day 14

Koda got a bath today. Might I add that he hates baths? He whimpers, it's actually pretty cute.

Keeping Positive.

It would be so easy to just close myself off to the world.

Sometimes I want to.

With all thats going on and Shawn being gone and being back at home,

it gets hard to keep positive.

But I've got so many great and wonderful friends who wont let that happen.

If I don't suggest we hang out, they will.

If theres a party going on, they'll make me go. They would drag me out of bed in

just p.j's to get me going.

I've been thinking about all the blessing I have. All the great things I have.

Who needs to be down when you've got such things?

So from now on, all things positive.

At least I'll try.

On a positive note.

Shawn got to call home. He only got one phone call, so I wasnt able to talk to him.

He hadnt gotten any of our letters, but he's doing good. Said he misses me and loves me very much. It made me almost cry when his mom told me that.

One down, five to go.

A week down, only five more to go before I fly down for Shawn's graduation.

I'm telling you, this sucks. I have no idea how my aunt does it. Going to work before one used to mean seeing Shawn. I'm used to getting off late at night and Shawn would be there waiting for me by my car. I used to have a bad day and he would be there with a rose and a hug to make it all better. Now that he is gone, it feels like I'm all alone.

I know that is not really the case. But it still feels like it. It's one thing to have family and friends for support and to be there with, but its a whole different story to have your speacial someone there. I do understand that this is for the best in the long run. That he is doing his best and serving out Country so that we can be Free. And I love that that is the case. I know I shouldnt whine or complain, that I need to get used to it. And that others have gone through longer.

But can I just say I miss him?

His laugh, his smile, his arms holding me tight. His hands fitting perfect with mine. The surprise visits, the Monster drinks, I even miss him sneaking up behind me and scaring the crap out of me. The way he would listen to all my crazy plans and dreams, and give me input on all I say. I miss hearing, here comes Kimber and Shawn. Like two peas in a pod, always together.

Just a few more months and it will be that way again.

Only 251 days and counting.

And he's off!

Shawn left Tuesady morning at Six am. I drove in with him, his mom and dad. We met up with his grandparents and headed to the airport around 3:30. We stayed with him until 5, when it was clear he needed to get in the security line. There were no tears shed. Not at the airport anyways. He's going to be gone until probably November sometime. 8 months. 255 days. I get to see him in May, when he graduates from Basic. Then he'll be in Texas at Lackland till August and the Dobbins AFB in Georgia for three months after that. I'll miss him, no idea what I'm going to do with out him for that long, only been two days and already I wish he was here. But he's off to serve the Country, so thats good.

Koda Bear

This is my Koda Bear. Named after the little bear in the movie Brother Bear. Because he just looks like a teddy bear. I got him from one of my friends, boyfriend. He was born around Christmas time. He's a Lab/Husky mix. Got a lot of energy, but yet sleeps almost all day. He's a super smart puppy, knows how to sit and lay down, almost shake and is for the most part potty trained. He's my baby.