Welcome to the family!

Kaleb Charles Everett.
Born October 19th, at 1:04 am. 8 lbs, 7 ozs and 20 1/2 inches long!
After 13 hours of labor he finally made his long awaited appearence. And he is loved! We got to leave the Birth Center around 4:30 and go home, where we both caught up on some sleep. He's such a sweetheart, awake and alert all day! He looks like his daddy, doesnt look like a smith.

With Every Day Life Changes

"When one door of happiness closes, another opens; But often we look so long at the closed door that we do not see the one that has been opened for us." -Helen Keller

Life sucks right now. It's hard to see the bright side. Or the silver lining as it is. But I'm trying. Recent problems have made life look like it's going to be a long and lonely one. But you know what, I know it won't. Life has it's ups and downs and thats just how it is.

Kaleb will be here any day now. Today is the 12th, supposably my "due" date. He's not ready to come out yet, it's much nicer inside than out right now. I give it another week at least. Nothing really exciting else is going on. Just thought I would put up a quote for the day. We have to remember to look for the other door. There is always another one.

You know that feeling of being so stressed over just about everything that you want to break down and cry for a little while?

Thats how I'm feeling.

I can't put my finger on exactly whats stressing me out, just everything. From the kids, to work, to my dog and car. Things in the past and things in the future.

I think I'm just tired. Need sleep.

I put in my new availablity form for work..

They put it into action next week.

Only working 3 days and they are 6 or less hours.

A 16 hour work week.

It scares me.

I know I can't work nine hour shifts anymore, it just about kills me. My feet hurt so much.

And I've got another job, working for Kirsten at Heritage Birth Centet 2 days a week.

So in reality I'm working five days a week. But it's still got me worried.

I need my own place so bad.

I got so much stuff from the Baby Shower and no where to put it.

I WILL not live with parents. Mine or Shawn's.

I can't do that. I just can't.

I just got back from babysitting in Kodiak on Wednesday, and here it is Friday and I'm now at my parents watching the kids for the weekend while they are in Kenai.

I think I'm to old to be babysitting.

Anyways, off to bed before another early day of work tomorrow.

Ahhh

So I'm still in Kodiak. Last day here. Amy and Jake fly in tomorrow morning and I fly out later that night. It's been fun but I'm so ready to be home, in my own bed with my puppy. Oh how I miss my boy! It's weird but he's like my baby, so not seeing him for a week is driving me nuts. I need to have a dog around me at all times! It's just normal.

I talked to Ben and Megan yesterday. I miss them so much. I admit I cried a little after I got off the phone. I've spent the last three summer's in Utah, so this year has been hard not seeing them. But I was excited to hear they are coming up for Christmas! So I can't wait to see them!

We cleaned all morning today. Betsy is ready for mom and dad to come home. She threw a giant fit and was didn't want anyone. The boys started asking if she wants mom and dad, so of course she started screaming "mommy, daddy!" They decided to call them. I wasnt going to stop them, they could try that, although I think it would make it worse for both sides. Amy and Jake talked to her trying to calm her, but she wasnt having any of it. The boys thought it was the funniest thing. I decided it was nap time. When in doubt, they are tired lol. She went right to sleep, didn't even fuss about it.

Jacob wants me to make Enchiladas for dinner. I LOVE enchiladas! But I'm sorta done with cooking lol. I've cooked more this week than I have all summer, maybe even all year! I know it's sad, but it's true. When you live alone and just cook for yourself, it's hard to bring yourself to really put effort into making food. Easier to just through something in the oven of microwave.

Shawn comes home soon! He texted me the other night, he's so ready to be home. And I agree, he called while he was out with his friends, just to say hi and he misses me, it's nice to hear his voice. I don't get to hear from him a lot lately, just a text before bed really. They've been keeping him pretty busy. We're still not sure exactly when he will be home, we just know it's the end of August. It would be nice if they would give him an date though...

Betsy is still sleeping, the boys are now running amuck outside, Jacob is still cleaning here and there. He is like the cleaning nazi lol, the house has to be clean or he goes crazy. And it doesn't help that the boys just ignore him...and me to for that matter lol. I just feel like the house will be clean when we get around to it. It's not bad enough that it stresses me out, so I don't worry about it. I guess thats where how we were raised kicks in. It's a good thing to, then later on in life he wont have a problem keeping a clean house. Lol.

Taco Cups and Avacado Salsa

Makes 18 cups

1 lb Ground Beef

1 Packet of Taco Seasoning

2/3 cup Water
1 can black beans, drained

2 cups chedder cheese, shredded

36 Wonton Wrappers

Favorite Taco toppings, salsa, sour cream, lettece, tomatoes.

Preheat oven to 375

Brown meat in a skillet and drain off fat, add the taco seasoning, black beans and water. Mix and simmer for 5-10 minutes until water is absorbed.

Spray muffin pan cups with cooking spray. Place one wonton wrapper in each cup. Divide half the taco meat between the cups, sprinkle half the cheese on top of each cup. Repeat layers: wonton, taco meat, cheese. Bake at 375 for 20 minutes.

Avacado Salsa

2 large Tomatoes

1 can of black beans, drained

1 can of corn, drained

3 or 4 avacados, depending on how much salsa you want

Garlic Salt

Mix together beans and corn, chop up tomatoes and add them. Chop up avacados and add them, do this last so they don't get to mushed up. Add garlic sald and pepper and whatever else you want for taste. Then enjoy!

Adventures in Kodiak

One of my favorite books. And I'm pretty sure it was based in Kodiak, AK. Lol. Today we decided to go on our own bear hunt. Mainly a sort of To See What We Can See trip.

And this is what we saw.

Painting on a rainy day

Late to bed, early to rise...first to nap?

It was a late night lastnight. I think the timing was all off yesterday really. We all slept in till about ten, ten thirty. So Betsy didn't take a nap till 2:30 or so, slept till almost five (we actually woke her up) dinner was around 7 and then a movie. So I didn't send the kids to bed until about ten I think. And of course it always takes awhile to actually get them in bed after sending them. Betsy went down easy and was ok for about five minutes, then decided she wasnt ready for bed. So I took her down to watch some Kipper. But of course I didn't know how to work the computer, or the tv... I didn't want to get any of the boys down with us because then Betsy would want them, so I got my computer, took her back upstairs to Amy and Jakes room, laid her on the bed and turned on Kipper. We both finally fell asleep around 12 when my computer died.

As if it we wernt up late enough, Betsy was up and ready to eat at seven. So we ate breakfast, got my charger and watched more Kipper. (It's the easiest way to keep her from wanting her brothers." So now it's ten and the boys are finally up, they are working on chores upstairs while Betsy and I are downstairs staying out of their way. We are going Bowling today! Should be interesting with miss B. And I'm sure Betsy and I will both be ready for a nap soon lol.

Breakfast Cups

Mmmm yummy. This morning after checking that the kids were in fact still in bed (It was 10:00, how could they not be up yet!?) I decided to make breakfast.

Breakfast Cups
I found these online at Pintrest.

3 TBS Butter 6 LG Eggs

6 Slices of Bacon 8 Slices of Bread
Salt and Pepper to taste.

Preheat Oven to 375. Butter or grease muffin cups.

Cut off crust on bread (this makes it easier to put in cups, then flatten with a rolling pin.

Cut flatten pieces of bread in half and carefully fold into muffin cups overlapping. (You kind of have to try a couple different ways and see which way works for you.) Brush bread with melted butter. Cook bacon until almost crisp (Or like me where it is all done and extra crispy, I'm the worlds worst bacon cooker lol. Oh and make sure you set off the fire alarm and wake everyone up!) Lay one bacon slice in each bread cup and crack an egg over the top.

Bake until egg whites are just set. 20-25 minutes.

Then enjoy! They are easy and really yummy, taste like an Egg McMuffin but better!

Day of Rain

I arrived in Kodiak lastnight around 7:30. I was greeted by the gate by Josh Earle. Wow he has gotten tall!! He's almost an inch taller than I am and he's only 11! Next was Sammy, he's tall to, I think it's been at least a year if not two or three since I have seen them last. We then took a tour around Kodiak.. Took us all of five minutes lol. It was cloudy and gray and had been raining.

Today is not much different. Except it's been raining the whole day. I keep wondering if it's ever going to let up, but nope, I think not. It might just rain the entire time I'm here. That would be my luck. We woke up pretty early. I think Betsy was up at six. Took Amy and Jake to the airport and then back home. We had a easy morning of playing board games and watching Betsy favorite show Kipper. Then took off to town in search of some chinese food for lunch and movies for a rainy day. Betsy was out like a light five minutes after being in the car.

When we got home we ate and then put her down for a nap. I feel like I could use a nap to, but instead Sam and I made cookies. Now we are watching Inspector Gadget 2. And it's still raining.

A mind of its own.

It's 12:51 am.

I have to be up in almost six hours.

Oh joy.

My brain is going a hundred miles an hour. So much thinking is going on. Sometimes I just wish I could turn it off. Forget everything and let my mind go blank. Just so I can have some peace and quiet. Some rest and relaxation.

Is it normal to not want to depend on someone else?

To always have a backup plan in case what your counting on doesn't happen?

I'm in a rut where I just don't know of anything anymore.

I want to be in dependant and rely on just me and my resources.

But can that happen?

I barely make enough money to get by for me and Koda.

Let alone for when Kaleb gets here.

Makes me nervous.

But nothing is impossible. I can do anything I set my mind to.

School.

I hate that word.

I want to achieve something in life. Bigger than what I have so far.

And with that being said more schooling is needed. But I'm just not ready for it. I don't want to go back to those days of paper writing and math problems.

But maybe that's just the kid in me and really I need to just get it done now while I'm young.

Grrr, if only I wanted to be something that didn't involve eight years of schooling.

Jealous

These people keep adding me on Facebook. Random girls and guys I have no idea who they are. Come to find out, they all have something to do with Shawn. The girls are all mostly ex-girlfriends or friends of his ex Brandy. The guys, well one of them was Brandy's little brother, the other was a friend. Now why are they adding me? That is the question. I've blocked Brandy so that I don't have to deal with her childish drama. My roommates are convinced they are adding me so she can spy on me. But why spy one me? Whats the point? Is she jealous? I've never had someone try so hard to get information. I don't understand the whole jealous ex-girlfriend. Why can't girls just grow up and realize its not ever going to work for them again? I'm the girlfriend now. See it, know it and get over it!

(Just had to get that out. It's very annoying it is.)

I love your love the most

"I was waiting on Prince Charming and the white horse... But then a Soldier came by in his Humvee and stole my heart."

Only about a month left until Shawn gets home. He's ready to be back to.

And I'm more than ready for him to be home. Lots to do before Kaleb gets here.

Lots of things coming up soon.

I'm going to Kodiak the first week of August to watch Amy's kids.

Baby Shower on the Eleventh of August.

The fair starts on the 20th I believe. I think I'm working my days off there.

Shawn gets back around the 26th.

I called into work today, I needed one more day off. I know I know, I'm bad.

But its been nice. Koda and I have had a nice lazy day. And going into a lazy night.

The roommates are staying in Anchorage for the night, so we ordered pizza and are

having a Friends marathon.

Funk.

I've been in such a funk lately. Don't want to do anything, yet don't want to do nothing.

I'm unhappy with my job, but don't know what to do about it exactly.

I want to quit sooooo bad. But I'm scared of having no other way of income.

Shawn comes home next month! Yay, I can finally say that!

The 26th to be exact.

In the month of him being home before the baby comes, we need another car and a place to live.

And a new job.

Oh and I don't think I've told you the name we've picked.

Kaleb Charles Everett.

Charles is a family name on both sides.

Well thats it for now. Back to doing nothing ;P

Newest Addition

Meet Faustus.

Or Fause.

He's our newest addition to the family.

Crazy I know. But his dad was going to put him down and I couldnt let that happen.

Happy Birthday....to me.

It's my Birthday tomorrow.
Time has flown. Feels like it was just my 16th.

Now It's my 19th.

Everyone asks what I want.

To tell you the truth, all I want is for Shawn to be here.

I wish I could make my wish that he would be home and he would be.

To bad it doesnt work like that.

I miss my boyfriend.

My plans keep changing.

Or maybe I keep changing my plans. One way or another, nothing is the same day by day.

I've pushed all my friends away. I've pushed Shawn away as well.

My logic in that?

When your alone no one can disapoint or leave you.

........

Yeah, stupid I know.

I've been so down lately and lonely and it seems like everyone elses lives are better off without me. I'm like the black cloud that just wont go away.

But I'm trying to fix that. Sometimes things just look low. But you've got to find the silver lining and see what you have, not what you want.

I'm working on that.

I've decided to stay in Alaska. At least for a couple years. Until the baby is older.

I'm going to go to cosmetology school. My goal is Trendsetters. But maybe one of the others if they don't offer part time. I'm moving to Anchorage, maybe this Summer, is something good apartment wise ever shows up.

Well now you've heard it. The new plan. Now we'll see how long this will last.

Another Day Down.

....Sigh....

Thats kind of how I feel.

a little Blah.

Just thinking of life and how I'm going to do this sorta sucks!

Looked more into Vet school and it's going to cost $25,000 every year for four years!

Thats crazy exspensive!!

Also, I put together a list of everything I need before the baby gets here in October.

1) New car. Or fix the subie. Preferably get my own car though.

2) Get my own apartment. This one is important to me. I don't mind having a roommate. But I would like the place to be formost mine to begin with.

3) New job. Or another job. Or a better position. Or just more money.

4) Figure out school. And what I want to do with life.

Now I just need to work on acomplishing these goals.

You can say it now, good luck Kimber.

What if..

Everyone always tells me I can do whatever I want. As long as I want it, and I fight for it, I can reach any goal. If I wanted to be an astronaut, I could. If I wanted to become president, I could.

Everyone keeps asking me when I'm getting married. And when am I going to tell Shawn that if he doesnt marry me, then I'm done.

First off, It's my life.

I'll do what I want, how I want and when I want. I'm a big girl now. I can make my own desisions and mistakes and learn from them.

But what if I don't want to marry Shawn?

What if I want to be a single mom and work on my goals for now?

I want to go to school to become a Vet. Maybe thats what I need to focus on. Shawn is doing what he wants, why can't I do what I want?

Everyone says it will be hard with a baby.

Yes, I am aware of that.

But I can do it.

I'm not saying I don't ever want to get married, or that I don't want to marry Shawn.

I'm just saying, please stop bugging me about my life.

And it's a......

And it's a......

(Drumrole please)

BOY!!!!

I know, I really wanted a girl. But we'll take a healthy baby boy :)

No name picked out yet. Shawn has decided he doesn't want to know what it is. Wants it to be a surprise, so thats why it's not up on facebook. I think it's safe to post here because no one ever reads these. I just like to post things lol.

Anyways everything looks good, he's got giant feet, he's lazy, we had to really work to make him move to get some pictures. And they still are not all that great. I love the one of his feet :)

Missing my bestfriend.

I didn't realize it till now, but Shawn really is my bestfriend. Of course I've got other friends, but you have that one bestfriend you always want to be with. You always want to talk to. Before he left we did everything together, I always had Shawn to hang out with. We hung out with other friends to, but for the most part it was just Shawn and I.
It's been so hard being away and not being able to talk. I was hoping when he gets to tech school that it will all go back to how it was. At least being able to talk. I know he's still busy, and still needs to focus on school, I try to tell myself to be understanding when I don't hear from him.

But its SO hard!

I just don't understand why he can't just talk to me all the time!

I mean I really do understand. Its just I want to spend hours talking about everything and nothing. It's been two months since we could do that. I love to talk. About everything, little or big. I like to make plans. I like people to be involved in my plans. I like to hear input on my plans. If it's one thing I hate, it's to plan by myself. Exspecially when it involves other people.

On the rare occasions we get to talk for more than a few minutes, it's weird. I have to think, what did we used to talk about? With the three hour time change its difficult to. I'm getting off work and he's already in bed. Going to take some getting used to.

And I'll probably have to learn some patiance lol.

I've just missed him so much.

On another note, we find out if it's a boy or girl tomorrow. I've got the ultrasound at eleven then a midwife appt at noon. So thats exciting! Crossing my fingers for a girl. But something tells me it's going to be a boy. Either way we'll take it :)

There and Back Again

Well I finally made it to San Antonio, after an eight hour flight and three hour drive from Houston. We all arived in one piece! I flew down with Shawn's parents and little sister Nicki. First night we were so tired we just crashed at the hotel.

Woke up early the next day ready to explore. We were going to hit up Seaworld, but come to find out as we're about to pay, Seaworld was only open to the schools that day. Who shuts down an entire theme park just for schools???

Anyways it was off the Base we go.

Drove around, looked at where we were going to have to be the next two days for Shawn's graduation. Getting a heads up on everything I guess you could say. We then proceded to the great Alamo! And the River Walk. It was gorgeous! We had lunch at Cracker Barrel. I had never been there before, it was fantastic! Thanks for introducing me guys!

The next two days went by WAY to fast.

Thursday was a super early morning, went to the Breifing and then went to watch the Airmans Run. That was actually pretty cool. Nicki spotted Shawn, I didn't see him until the run back. Then they had the Coin Cerimony. It was a lot of Hurry up and wait inbetween everything. I think I still have imprints from those bleachers on my butt lol.

We got to spend the rest of the day with Shawn on Base. We stood in line for two and a half hours, waiting for him to get his stripes on his shirts. Then went to find something to eat. Holy crap have I forgotten how much that boy can eat! Two slices of pizza, three breadsticks, half my Chinese food, a giant Charlys sub, a couple candy bars, Ice cream. All within three hours I do believe. We were all wondering where he puts it all!

I swear he lost some weight and grew three inches as well.

Friday came and we found ourselves waiting in line again. Waiting to board the busses to take us to the Parade Grounds. The last bit of the Graduation. And, lots more waiting lol.

I had gotten pretty burnt the day before, so I was careful to douse myself with sunscreen.

The Parade was cool, they all walked by us in their Blues. It was a neat exsperience. Something you don't get to do more than once (Unless you know lots of people in the military?)

We got to go see their bunks after that. The hallway smelled like boys, bleh. Everything was so clean and organized, it was amazing!

We got to go off base today. We went to eat lunch at Cracker Barrel, then went to Seaworld! This time we got in, and for free to, thanks to Shawny. Seaworld was really cool, we got to feed the Dolphins, which was probably the best part! See the sharks, the aligators and most importantly just be together. It was a Fantastic Day!

It did however go by way to fast. Soon the day was ending and we had to take Shawn back to Base. He had to be back by 7, so we dropped him off at 6:30 so he wouldnt be late.

Saturday morning we picked him up at nine and went to Burger King for breakfast. We were flying out that day. And since we had to drive back to Houston we needed to get a move on. I was sad to go, but it was a good trip, better than not seeing him. Only four more months and he'll be home again. And I was ready to go back to Alaska. It was to hot in Texas lol.

That was our trip, it was great and amazing! I can't thank the Everetts enough for bringing me along and making it the best it could be!

Now I just need to hurry up and wait for him to come home! lol.

The Count Down Is Coming To An End!

It's about that time!

One more day and I fly out!

I'm so ready to get out of this state! It's cold, it's nasty and I'm just sorta done with it.

Of course I don't want to move, just a vacation sounds nice.

Plus, I really need to see my boyfriend. Like really really really need to see him.

I hate being away. And not being able to talk. Or see eachother.

Only a couple more days.

Oh what do you do when it's 90' degrees..?

It's almost that time! Yay!

What time you ask?

Texas time!

I'm heading down to San Antonio Monday night/Tuesday morning.

Shawn graduates basic on Thursday. So we get to go down for it!

We're going early so we can spend some time in Texas, since none of us have been there before. We're going to Seaworld on Wednesday. Thursday we're going on Base to hang out with Shawn. Friday is his graduation, then we're doing the River Walk.

Saturday we only get the morning with him before we have to drive back to Houston for our flight. But hey, two days is better than none.

But anyways, I'm getting excited. Only a few more days. I've already started packing :)

Went to the store yesterday with my sisters, got some clothes and hopefully all I will need while I'm down there. It's almost all packed up to haha.

Anyways, other than that.

Easter was good. I've been house sitting this last weekend, so I came home to the family for a little bit, then went to Shawn's house for dinner with his family. The grandparents came out. Dinner was good. Got a phone call from Shawny. That made me day.

Work has been ok. After three months of closing, I'm finally getting earlier shifts. I was actually there at 8am one morning. Hopeing to get more shifts like that.

Looked at an apartment with my friend Malinda yesterday. It was way cute! I hope we get it!

Time Flys When Your Busy.

I can't believe April is already half way over!

It's like it just started. Only two weeks till I fly down to Texas for Shawn's graduation!

And then only six more months till he comes home!

Can't wait!

Nothing new is really going on.

Found someone to take over my route for me. Yay!

Sporting a new hair style and color, tried to go back to my natural, but it went darker.

And no, I didn't do it myself this time. I paid big money to have it done.

Koda Bear is getting big. Slowly. Lol.

He is filling out and then going to start growing I think.

He's a cutie like always.

Finally! It came!

I FINALLY GOT LETTERS!

Yay me!

I was having a bad day on Sunday, I didn't get much sleep because I had a closing shift at work, then had my route and then opened the following morning. And then to top it off I went to church. While at church I left my phone in the car.

When I got out of church and checked my phone, Shawn's mom said he had called! He was doing good and misses us all! I quickly checked my phone for a missed call. Of course there was none. He is only allowed one call. But I had hope. From now on I've decided to keep my phone with me at all times. Just in case.

But she also said that I received two letters from him. He sends them with his families letter to his house. I picked them up Monday from his mom at work. I couldn't wait to read what he had to say!

The first one I opened was actually the second of the two, but as I was reading he mentioned going to church again and a Elder Squire. I couldn't believe what I had just read.

I hurried to the next letter and sure enough he says "Oh by the way, I'm going to Mormon Church." He enjoys it a lot. And they feed him lol.

I started crying. Have I mentioned I miss my boyfriend?

Waiting for a letter or some kinda of evidence that he does still exists is torture. I write him every day, about everything and nothing. I sometimes think I write to much, but he said he loves hearing from me. I did warn him before he left though, I said I like to talk a lot, I change my mind on a daily basis and I love to write. So be warned now, you'll get a lot of letters. And he has. Letters and lots of pictures.

Anyways, just thought I would fill in everyone, if anyone, is reading this.

Only five weeks before Graduation!

Day 14

Koda got a bath today. Might I add that he hates baths? He whimpers, it's actually pretty cute.

Keeping Positive.

It would be so easy to just close myself off to the world.

Sometimes I want to.

With all thats going on and Shawn being gone and being back at home,

it gets hard to keep positive.

But I've got so many great and wonderful friends who wont let that happen.

If I don't suggest we hang out, they will.

If theres a party going on, they'll make me go. They would drag me out of bed in

just p.j's to get me going.

I've been thinking about all the blessing I have. All the great things I have.

Who needs to be down when you've got such things?

So from now on, all things positive.

At least I'll try.

On a positive note.

Shawn got to call home. He only got one phone call, so I wasnt able to talk to him.

He hadnt gotten any of our letters, but he's doing good. Said he misses me and loves me very much. It made me almost cry when his mom told me that.

One down, five to go.

A week down, only five more to go before I fly down for Shawn's graduation.

I'm telling you, this sucks. I have no idea how my aunt does it. Going to work before one used to mean seeing Shawn. I'm used to getting off late at night and Shawn would be there waiting for me by my car. I used to have a bad day and he would be there with a rose and a hug to make it all better. Now that he is gone, it feels like I'm all alone.

I know that is not really the case. But it still feels like it. It's one thing to have family and friends for support and to be there with, but its a whole different story to have your speacial someone there. I do understand that this is for the best in the long run. That he is doing his best and serving out Country so that we can be Free. And I love that that is the case. I know I shouldnt whine or complain, that I need to get used to it. And that others have gone through longer.

But can I just say I miss him?

His laugh, his smile, his arms holding me tight. His hands fitting perfect with mine. The surprise visits, the Monster drinks, I even miss him sneaking up behind me and scaring the crap out of me. The way he would listen to all my crazy plans and dreams, and give me input on all I say. I miss hearing, here comes Kimber and Shawn. Like two peas in a pod, always together.

Just a few more months and it will be that way again.

Only 251 days and counting.

And he's off!

Shawn left Tuesady morning at Six am. I drove in with him, his mom and dad. We met up with his grandparents and headed to the airport around 3:30. We stayed with him until 5, when it was clear he needed to get in the security line. There were no tears shed. Not at the airport anyways. He's going to be gone until probably November sometime. 8 months. 255 days. I get to see him in May, when he graduates from Basic. Then he'll be in Texas at Lackland till August and the Dobbins AFB in Georgia for three months after that. I'll miss him, no idea what I'm going to do with out him for that long, only been two days and already I wish he was here. But he's off to serve the Country, so thats good.

Koda Bear

This is my Koda Bear. Named after the little bear in the movie Brother Bear. Because he just looks like a teddy bear. I got him from one of my friends, boyfriend. He was born around Christmas time. He's a Lab/Husky mix. Got a lot of energy, but yet sleeps almost all day. He's a super smart puppy, knows how to sit and lay down, almost shake and is for the most part potty trained. He's my baby.

Happy Birthday Shawn!

Shawn's birthday was last Saturday, Febuary 5th. But since I worked all day, we didnt celebrate it. Sooo the wonderful girlfriend in me decided to do a surprise dinner at Red Robin. So I got the usual group, Jennifer, Charlotte, John and Doug together. They were all there waiting at eight. Shawn picked me up from work, he thought it was me and him going on a date. We got to Red Robin and everyone yelled surprise! It was a blast! They sang the Birthday Song and he got a free sunday. He was surprised, needless to say, I pulled it off! Yay me! We then headed over to the pool hall for some more fun, I have to say, I'm awful at it, but I love Pool!

Contemplating Life..and then some.

I've been so stressed trying to figure out what my purpose in life is. What should I do? When should I do it? How should I do it?

I guess no one really ever knows what it is they want. People are way older than me and still don't know. They tell me that's OK. Try lots of things. You've got your whole life to figure it out. But what if I want to know now?

I know. I need to be patient. Something I'm not very good at.

I was sitting here thinking while my pizza is in the oven. I've got a lot to be grateful for.

I've got an amazing family who loves me and is there whenever I need them. Just last night I had a blessing from my dad and Brother Hobbs, their Home Teacher.

I have wonderful aunts and uncles, who as well love me and care for me. I spent a much needed hour on the phone yesterday with Megan. Getting updated on the goings on down there.

Cousins who just look up to me. I talked to Thomas on the phone yesterday, Megan's baby. I actually cried. I miss that kid so much. I guess you get attached when you spend eight months with him. I think about the Mckimmey girls all the time as well.

A boyfriend who loves me no matter what I do. I got my wisdom teeth out last week. He was my driver. I guess I wasn't very nice to him. Cussed him out several times, told him I hated him, and flipped him off. I ended up passing out on the way home. He brought me inside, tucked me in and checked up on me throughout the night.

Friends who I can lean on when I need to lean away from the family. They remind me in my most stressed out days how to have fun and enjoy life while I can.

I've got a car that while is a beater and falling apart on me, still runs.

A home that works for me.

And a job that I semi enjoy. Home Depot has been great. It has good benifits and is a monthly income.

So for now, I think I'll just enjoy life and see where it takes me. Who knows, maybe I'll become an astronaut. Or maybe a sniper in the military. But until then. I'm happy being me.

Security Forces

Shawn has finally gotten everything done that needed to be done with the Air Force. He's offically in!! He got sworn in on Friday, that was a neat exsperience! It really made me think though, this is really happening. He's leaving March 8th. A lot sooner than he thought. It's now starting to catch up to him. He's so stressed out about all he has to do in only a month. He wont be coming home until August 22nd. He's missing my birthday :( Oh well, the reason is good enough. Oh yeah, he's joining the Air Force Security Forces. Yes, a cop. It's rather funny to, counting how many tickets the kid has. Anyways, so I'm just going to be here working, waiting for him to get back. Ok, that sounds like I'm pathetic.....Ok maybe I am a little bit.. I'll find something to keep me occupied till he gets home!